Monday, November 27, 2006

Do you save your blog??

I am clueless on this, do you somehow save your blog??? Do you print it out?? What are my options for this??? Anyone??

Not much time to post this week

I am going to be busy until mid December when the semester ends. I have 2 big tests and I feel so far behind. I am getting 94% and I need 92% to get an A so I really need to keep doing well on the tests. We also have our group project on Sunday. Plus clinicals Fri/Sat. I cannot wait until this semester is DONE!!!

Thanksgiving this n that

We had a nice Thanksgiving at the in laws. The kids so love playing with their cousins. I hardly see them the whole time we are there. They are so busy having fun. We ate WAY too much and slept way too little. We sat around and played games and watched movies and talked. A good time was had by all. I am so thankful for my 2 beautiful healthy children. I am thankful for the love they give me and the warm feeling I get being with them. I never knew I could love this much. I am thankful for my husband who sticks by me through it all. Who takes me as I am and loves me anyway. I am not the easiest wife in the world. I study all the time, and I don't cook nice meals. I don't always put the laundry right away. I argue about nothing. I get crabby and he still loves me no matter what. We have our hard times but he is my best friend. I am thankful for my life, and all I have been given. I am so very lucky.

Monday, November 13, 2006


I got my lowest score so far on this test tonight. I guess I should be happy with it because it was a very hard test and I expected worse. I just want an A so badly that I hope I can do well on the remaining tests. An A is 92-100%. I am relieved it is over and am going to relax before bed!

Sunday, November 12, 2006

Feeling Blah....

It is that cold and dreary time of year. It will last months up here in the cold and snowy north country. I saw that we are expecting snow this week. Maybe even tomorrow! B may have to even wear his "snow gear" to school. Now that is fun, getting him all bundled every day and his locker is tiny. I am not sure where all the stuff will go. Poor kids have to get in and out of that snow stuff like 3 times a day! Oh, the fun. The kids actually look forward to the snow, and I don't mind it the first few times. I even like a white christmas. What I don't like is the frigid cold and not being comfortable at all when I go outside. I hate warming up the car for 30 minutes just to get some warmth. I hate that I am stuck inside because I don't like to go anywhere.

I also am feeling just plain tired. I have been trying to study for this test and I have been up late more nights than not lately. I can see now that this nursing school is going to be the hardest thing I will EVER do. I am so tired!! I have to take it one day at a time and soon the first semester will be over and I can focus on the 2nd. I hear it is the hardest out of all 4, so it will be a tough winter/spring, but I have to keep in mind that it will get better and it will go fast.

I am also just a little hurt by some anonymous comments that have been left on my blog and also someone else's blog towards me. I know I shouldn't be, but I am. I won't let it bug me for long, but I guess I was naive when I thought that I would only get nice comments and people here. I don't think I've written anything to offend people and even though I visit a lot of blogs I rarely post and when I do, it is always short and sweet. I don't think I've ever had trouble with anyone online. And I've been blogging for a while now, and had very minimal traffic over here. Probably because I don't comment on other people's blogs much, and I don't tell really anyone about this blog. Therefore, no one really knows about it. Which was ok. I was always pleasantly surprised when I got an email or comment from a new reader. I'm just not sure what happened and I guess all I can do is write for myself and try to not let it bother me. I'm a sensitive person by nature and I need to get a thicker skin.

Good night for now!

Saturday, November 11, 2006

Trying to Study

I have a huge theory test on Monday that I've been trying to study for. The kids are at a neighbors house for a playdate for 45 more minutes. I am going to take the online quizzes on the book website and then probably wait until tonight to do some more studying. I am really hoping to do well on this test. Then we have 2 tests left in December, plus a group presentation. I also have 2 more clinical weekends before the semester is done. I will then be 1/4 done with school!!! Doesn't seem like much but I'm getting there!!

I had a conference at B's school, and he is doing great. The teacher said he is a good kid, gets along with everyone, and his behavior is great. He also did well in all his subjects. I am very proud of him. He has come a long way since kindergarten. He is getting ready to start wrestling in December. It will be his second year. I hope he likes it as much this year. I need to try to find an activity for J this winter. Being only 4 it is hard. I may just put her in community ed gymnastics again, even though I wasn't that thrilled with it last year. She liked it and the price is right. She loves gymnastics and will hopefully be old enough for soccer this spring.

This week isn't too busy so far. Just my test monday and then I will feel great. I have class wednesday and B has school all week. I hope to get some things done around the house and some X-mas shopping done. I ended up ordering this online for myself:

My husband loves a clean floor and I hear (and read from recommendations) that this little guy may come in handy! I justified it by telling myself that I have never bought myself a new vacuum. They have always been hand me downs. This sells new at the store for twice the price as it was online so I think I got a good deal. I can't wait til it comes so I can try it out!!! I think the kids (and dog) will get a kick out of it too! And my hubby will be happy, no crumbs on the floor!! :) I also ordered a couple things for the kids while I was online. I got J a princess computer and B a star wars lego set and a light saber. Those were things I knew they really wanted and since I am only getting them a few things each, I will be almost done! I also got them each a robe, since it is so cold here and J has always wanted a robe. I think it will be nice for getting out of the bath and snuggling on those cold winter evenings! I got B a spiderman one and J a blue/green one (her favorite color). I hope they like them! I just have to figure out what other things to get them. J likes everything and can't really pin point what she really wants. B is really into star wars. I may get him some of the little figures for his collection. But they won't get much, as they have so much already and get things from family as well. I am doing a lot of gift cards this year since I am so busy with school. I won't have time to search for the "perfect" gift for everyone and this will be easy.

By the way, I had to moderate my comments. I was getting some really annoying ones that I had to delete and I don't have the time nor energy to deal with immature people. So, hopefully if you are still reading you will continue to do so! You should be able to comment if you register. I just am not letting any anonymous comments anymore. Anytime I've gotten an anonymous one it has not been a nice one and I am not here to blog and argue with people who want to criticize others. I am here to meet nice people and am totally willing to hear opinions if people will leave their names and not hide behind the anonymous title. So annoying!!

Sunday, November 05, 2006

So exhausted but feeling great!

I am up at 11pm and exhausted. DH had to leave on a business trip so again I have the house empty (besides 2 sleeping kids), too quiet and I dread going up to bed. I should be in bed because I had clinicals this weekend and I am so tired. I was up both Saturday and Sunday at 5:10 am. I am not an early morning person and this is a time of day I do not ever see! I was also up most of Friday night. I had to go to the hospital at 4pm and go over my patient charts so I could write my care plan. I was there for about 2 hours and then returned home to spend a little time with the kids, get them to bed, and write my care plan. I was up until about midnight, but then couldn't sleep once I got into bed. My mind was just spinning from all that thinking!! I got to interact with may different patients this weekend. I had 2 patients of my own because the first one left on Sat so I got another one Sun. I felt like I really got to know them and help them. I also helped out on the floor with some other patients. Right now we are pretty limited to what we can do but it is still just a great learning experience. My feet and back are so tired from being on my feet all day (I am not used to that either!!) but weirdly it is good to feel tired. It is good to feel challenged and busy. It's been too long since I've felt that. As wonderful and fullfilling as my children are to me, they don't need me as much as they used to. Plus, they are spending some great quality time with their dad. They are growing closer to him, and learning that mommy has to leave sometimes to help other people. Don't get me wrong, they still are, and always will be, my #1 priority. I miss them terribly when I'm at school and the hospital, but I truly know that I am pursuing this for a reason. I am going through all this schooling, money, time, pain, because I am meant to be a nurse. I truly believe this.